Inside

I really like my friends, and I understand that is a sort of general statement, because why would you be friends with somebody you don't like? What I mean is, I'm so grateful for them and recognize that every day of my life. I don't have many friends, and I think it is such a strange thing to feel devoted to many people. I love few, but very strongly. I always tell my friends "I love you" when we depart and I'm not sure if they take it seriously, but I mean it. 

But I honestly feel like I love everyone more than they realize, and a lot of the time I feel like that love isn't returned. I know it's because not everyone has the same values as me, and that's fine. Just sometimes I don't feel appreciated, I feel really alone. I feel like I scare everyone away. I miss being in love. I miss feeling so comfortable with a person. 

It's difficult to deal with when you realize you're actually alone, but you can't ever be alone actually.